.the moment to live and the moment to die

[.xander;;]

xander cringed visibly at being compared to his father. but, well, that was a dead ringer right there.

yeah, he replied immediately with narrowed eyes, i do.

because frankly, he really didn't believe lynx at this point. peter was the most remorseful? impossible. peter had never given two shits about xander in the first place, and he had no reason to now.

[lynx]

"I found that I really don't care for your mother at all." Seriously, revelations has come. Lynx doesn't like someone! Can anyone believe it?

"Your problems both stem from your relationships with the various three I visited, and from your own turning of said experiences. In the end, you're really a product of nurture rather than nature, an odd case..."

He paused. "I can understand why you wanted to die. You're a stronger person than I am for hanging on so long, Xander."

[.xander;;]

LOL lynx didn't care for xander's mother. that made mink blow alex juice all over her computer. it was pretty funny actually. xander was not surprised at this fact. sheryl was not the most lovable person. nor did she SPREAD A LOT OF LOVE RRRRRRRRR.

but seriously. this was not happening. there was no fucking way this was real.

how do you know whether i wanted to die? he inquired. his vision was spinning slightly.

[lynx]

"...Julie told me." He said softly, keeping an eye on Xander, a level gaze. His expression nuetral (which was probably a rather scary sight, considering that he really didn't change from happy.......ever).

"I really can't say I blame you, considering what I was told... I'm sorry you went through all of that."

[.xander;;]

his whole head spun. he felt nauseous, sick to his stomach. how could this be real? how had lynx managed all of this? lynx had talked to her. it hadn't been that long ago. how...

what else... he managed to scrawl slowly, ...did she tell you?

[lynx]

"Several things. Things that I don't really want to mention yet, at least, not in this exact session. You need time to process everything, and it'd be better to go slowly with everything, alright?" He had a concerned look for his favorite patient, and of course.

Why wouldn't he? It was Xandery.

Andhehadadatetonight

[.xander;;]

if julie had told lynx about his wanting to die, that must also mean she told him about his trying to die. but she had promised she wouldn't tell anyone. she wouldn't have told him, right?

she did. she told him. somehow xander knew. but somehow that wasn't what upset him the most. lynx had talked to her. lynx had seen her, probably sat down with her. it wasn't fair. lynx got to see her, and he didn't... it wasn't fair.

how was she? there was a deep longing prominent in xander's eyes. he would kill just to see her for one more moment.

[lynx]

"...Ah...well... " How can Lynx say 'I wanted to bitchslap her'? "She was... I guess she was fine..." That was a safe word, fine, yes, a very safe word.

He wasn't good at being nice with news like this, was he? He really needed something to shut him up.

Like Dan's penis /shot

[.xander;;]

he guessed she was fine? did that mean she wasn't fine? it did. it meant she wasn't fine. oh, god. what was wrong with her? had something happened? was she hurt?

xander was too busy running in mental circles that he didn't bother to say anything. however, eventually sam began to whine from lack of attention and nuzzled his hand. he pet her briefly and then found words again.

you guess or you know? how did she look, what did she sound like? PFFFT like xander was going to shut up about julie when he was on a roll. that's funny, though.

[lynx]

"I didn't spend enough time with her to gauge her mental stability or lack of it. Please calm down." Sighs a little bit, looking to the ground, oi, it was much nicer when he didn't care. "...Can we please get off the subject of her and on the subject of you? That IS why we are here in the first place."